Dear Baby,
Part of the reason I started this blog was so you could look at it one day and see the journey that Daddy and I took from your conception to your arrival. I must admit that is is VERY strange calling him ‘Daddy’ but I’m sure it will grow on me! It’s also very strange to know that there is a little life inside my body right now. I’m sure as you grow and make your presence known it will start to feel more real. Also, I think that seeing you for the first time on the ultrasound will drive home the reality of all of this!
Most days I don’t feel any different than I did before before I was pregnant. My symptoms so far are very mild but I’m very happy when I feel a twinge in my abdomen or a soreness in my breasts because it’s a little reminder that you are inside of me, growing at an astounding rate. Sometimes I get a little scared that I’m not ready for this or I am anxious about money etc but my overwhelming feeling so far is love and calmness. That is the energy that I want you to feed upon as you grow.
Today you are 5 weeks and one day old. Your heart started beating yesterday and imagining that little miracle makes me weepy. You are truly a blessing from the universe.
As you know, your Aunt Torey was in a bad car accident about a year before you were conceived (right after Mommy and Daddy’s Wedding) and the last year has been incredibly hard on our whole family, especially your grandmother. It is my sincere and earnest hope that the news of your impending arrival will inject some much needed joy into this family. Your tiny beating heart is a beacon of hope.
Aunt Torey has taken to asking me every day if I am pregnant yet. 🙂 I hate lying to her but it’s also kind of funny that she started asking me two days after we found out about you. I told her she would be the first in the family to find out about my pregnancy so I’m thinking of the perfect way to tell her at Thanksgiving. I’ll be sure to let you know that story after it happens.
I am so grateful that I have been blessed with your life inside of me. I can’t wait to meet you.
Love Always,
Mommy
