Weeks pregnant: 11 & 12
Weight Gain: According to the scale at the midwife’s office I’m up 2lbs from the last visit 4 weeks ago. That’s fine by me.
Size of the baby: Week 11 a fig and week 12 a lime. Baby is about 2 inches long now. He can open and close his hands, he has reflexes and working kidneys.
Emotional stuff: I’m very much ready to feel better. It’s so draining to feel nauseated and exhausted every day and I want to have more energy and tolerance for Q. Hopefully I’m almost out of the woods. I’m ready for food to taste good again. Eating is a gamble. I can’t trust that food is going to either taste good or feel good after eating. One day I can eat something and feel great and then the next day I eat the same thing and feel awful. It’s disheartening to say the least.
Thankfully, I’ve been able to accomplish a few things on my to-do list this week during energy surges so that has bolstered me emotionally.
Physical stuff: Like I said above, I’m still feeling sick pretty much every day but I am having better days here and there. In addition, my joints are starting to ache pretty much daily. I’m talking flu-like aching in pretty much all of my joints: Hips, knees, ankles, elbows, wrists, fingers… This didn’t happen until much later with my first pregnancy. I understand that my system is flooded with relaxin and everything is stretching out to make room for T-rex to grow but it definitely wasn’t this painful this early last time.
I can’t stop eating: Bagels & Cream Cheese have been good to me lately. The only food that I can count on to taste pretty good and calm my stomach is Kashi Cherry Dark Chocolate granola bars. I’m SO sick of them but they are a 110% necessary part of my day. I don’t leave home without them!
I can’t even look at: No true aversions right now. I’m starting to feel hungry again so things are sounding good… until they don’t. I was loving Portillo’s and Chipotle but now they sound awful. I had to spit out bacon the other day. BACON. That’s just not right.
Fitness: When I feel up to it, walking around has been nice. I even thought about doing some wii zumba this week. Thinking about it is half the battle, right?
Birth prep: more casual doula shopping
Baby prep: Planning how to rearrange our apartment to fit baby stuff and not feel totally claustrophobic. Hoping to store some furniture elsewhere. I’d love to move but it doesn’t make financial sense right now. Moving is freaking expensive and our apartment is a really great deal, even though we don’t love it.
Breastfeeding: Still hoping to stop in the next few months but Q is even more obsessed with it than ever. She’s even started telling me she wants to go take a nap to get me to go into her bedroom and nurse her (our pre-nap time routine) and then afterwards she’ll make a break for the door to go play! Smart, smart girl. It really is amazing how 3-5 minutes at the breast, when she’s not even getting milk, transforms her. She goes from a whining, crying mess to a smiling, giggling kid. It’s like magic. I don’t know if I’m actually ready to discard the most powerful calming tool in my arsenal.
