Dear Baby T,
Wow. This pregnancy has gone so quickly! I can hardly believe that we are going to meet you in just a few weeks. It still doesn’t seem real. We have all of your “stuff” ready for you. You have a name (that we’re not sharing until you arrive). We know a few things about you, in theory, but meeting you in person is going to be such an amazing experience.
I’ve known for a long time that I wanted more than one child. It was kind of a no brainer for me, especially as a second child myself. I think sibling relationships are some of the most important relationships you’ll ever have. I don’t know where I’d be or who I’d be without my brother and sister. That being said, before I became pregnant with you I hadn’t thought too much about what it would be like to have more than one child, or what it’d be like to be pregnant for a second time.
My first pregnancy I had little else of importance to distract me from what was going on in my uterus. I counted weeks, even days. I was always up to speed on exactly what size the baby should be and what body parts were growing, etc. I talked and sang to my baby and danced and thought about how my food might “taste” to the baby on the inside. Daddy read books to my belly each night. I spent a lot of time imagining what it would be like to be a mommy.
This time was different, and not necessarily in a bad way. Your sister keeps me occupied and rather busy during the day and I’m exhausted at night. Most of the singing and book reading that you’ve heard has been us singing and reading to her. I was already familiar with how a baby grows in utero so I didn’t obsess over phone apps that told me exactly what my fetus was up to. I noted the milestones just like before but this time it all seemed to happen so fast! I’m happy you’re such an active little thing because it has helped me to feel connected with you in the midst of our daily chaos. I love the series of bump photos that we’ve done for you and I hope that someday you’ll enjoy looking at them. From the day I found out I was carrying you inside me you’ve been incorporated into our little family unit and a part of our routines. I hope that means that once you arrive it will feel like a filling a piece to our family puzzle.
This pregnancy I don’t need to imagine what it will be like to be a mommy, I already know. However, I’m looking forward to learning what it will be like to be YOUR mommy. Daddy and I talk about how it’s a little mind blowing that we’re going to be having ANOTHER child and this child will be a totally different person from Q. What if you’re nothing like her? That would throw us for a loop for sure. But we’re excited for the adventure of learning what you are like.
If you decide to come as early as Q came, this time two weeks from now I’ll be coming home from the hospital with you. I can’t wrap my head around this possibility! I really hope you hang tight until at least 38 weeks until my midwife is back in town. Don’t get me wrong, we’re very excited to meet you, but a smooth delivery is VERY important to me and I want you to be in the hands of someone we know and trust.
We are about to embark on such an amazing adventure. I can’t believe we are already at the end of this journey we’ve taken together. Right now you are dancing around inside me and I feel so close to you. For this time you are mine alone and I love that my body is taking care of your every need and keeping you safe from the world. I will miss being this close to you. As soon as you come out I have to share you with the world and I’m not quite ready to do that yet. You are so precious to me. Right now my body is fully supporting your life yet you are already your own little person in there. It’s mind blowing, really.
It’s hitting me that there’s a decent chance that you may be my last baby. I’m hopeful that we may add to our family down the line but there are no guarantees in life, that’s for sure! It breaks my heart to think that pretty soon I’ll never carry life inside me again. It’s been such a blessing to carry you.
I’m excited to see your face and touch your soft, wrinkled skin. I can’t wait to smell your baby smell and have you sleep on my chest. Meeting you is going to be absolutely incredible.
Sit tight for a few more weeks please. I’d rather you be fashionably late than early to the party. 🙂
I love you forever to infinity,
Mommy.
