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Hello World!

Gooooooooooooood morning INTERWEBS!

I’ve decided that 2012 will be the year of the blog and the year of taking pictures of my own kid! I’m committing myself to a 52 week project of taking pictures of Q and hopefully most weeks will include pictures of me and Q together.

What else this blog will include remains to be seen. I feel like I’m walking a fine line between public and private here but I’m a pretty public person in general so I feel pretty confident. I used to be pretty into blogging so I’m hoping to get back into it.

Welcome to the journey!

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Dear Q – 16 months

Dear Q,

For once I am early with your letter. In a few days you will be 16 months old and you are growing up so fast! So much has changed since your last letter, you keep me quite busy, and quite entertained!

You started walking at your cousin O’s birthday party. You took 5 steps in a row and we were so excited. From there you got better and better and now you’re walking without hesitation and with a considerable amount of speed. It’s the cutest thing ever.

Just this week you have figured out that you can go in a different direction than I’m going and you get pretty mad when I try to turn you around. You’re quite a determined little lady. When I remove you from a situation or try to turn you around you’ll go directly back to where you were unless I put up an actual barrier. Gone are the days of just handing you something new to play with. Object permanence is in full effect, nothing gets past you!

My favorite time of day with you is in the morning. You’re SO happy. We start by cuddling in Mommy & Daddy’s bed and nursing. Then when you’ve had enough cuddles and milk you usually spring up like a jack in a box. You are talking to the cats, crawling all over the bed, standing up and then diving in all directions, it’s hilarious. Then you get down and you walk around laughing your head off about who knows what. This is the time of day where you love to play by yourself as long as I’m close by.

Your vocabulary is really taking off with speaking and signing. You’ve been signing ‘milk’ for a long time so that’s old news. 🙂 In the past month you’ve started saying Daddy & Mama. Also say doggie (for most animals), you have your made up word for cat “Ah-mmmmm” and you just started signing for cat today! I’ve figured out that “nay-gee” is food, “ah-dee” is something you want, like my phone, and “Gee” is toy or books. In the past two days you’ve picked up the signs for More and All Done and you learned how to say ‘Down’ when you want to get down from us holding you or from the couch/chair.

You recognize a TON of words and when you feel like listening you’re pretty good at following commands! You love playing with your baby doll (and you love real babies), picture flash cards, stacking rings, any kind of ball & lots of other toys. You like to hand me things, just as long as I hand them right back to you! You’re a big fan of climbing stairs and your favorite places to play are on the couch and on our bed. You stand up and fall down over and over again.

Sleep still isn’t where I’d like it to be but it’s getting better. Someday you’ll sleep! By the time you sleep we’ll probably be going through it all again with the next baby. 🙂

Time is going so quickly and I’ve done such a poor job keeping track of how quickly you’re growing up. I’m going to miss this awesome toddler phase but I admit that life will probably get easier when you can communicate a little more. The less screaming and banging on me, the better. I’d also love it if you’d start pointing at things, it would help me know what you want. 🙂

I love you to the moon and back, I’m thankful to have you in my life. You bring magic to my world.

Love,

Mommy

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It Won’t Be Like This For Long

This week I spent some time editing photos from our recent family trip, a big reunion with 45+ of S’s family members from all over the world. I’m sure we’ll be looking at these photos for many years and maybe when our kids are grown they’ll look at these photos and laugh at how young we look.

I rarely see myself in photographs. I spend WAY more time behind the camera than in front of it. As I was going through these photos I came across the one big group shot that I’m in and immediately recoiled at my appearance. I then tweeted:

Looking at family photo from our reunion & I look so sloppy/flabby/yuck. Need clothes that fit & necklines not stretched from #breastfeeding

All I could see was the mom of the one year old that refused to sleep in a house full of people and who wanted to breastfeed 42,000 times a day. The mom who hadn’t showered that day, had a wrinkly purple shirt, a flabby stomach and ill fitting shorts that showed the widest part of her legs instead of accentuating the skinny part. She looks exhausted. She looks like a hot mess, her boob is almost out of her shirt from the one year old pulling at it and she looks….

She looks….

She looks happy.

She looks ridiculously happy.

She IS happy.

And there was my epiphany.

Someday I’m going to look back at this photo and remember how fun Q was at this age. How sweet it was to just be a family of three, still learning the ropes and having our whole lives ahead of us. I'm going to want to go back to this moment in time.

This time is fleeting.

“It won’t be like this for long. One day soon that little girl will be all grown up and gone” -Darius Rucker

My baby is turning into a little girl more and more every day. Some day too soon she won’t be stretching out my shirts because she won’t be breastfeeding anymore. Someday I’ll have more than 5 minutes to myself to get ready for the day and I’ll miss when she needed me so much that I couldn’t get away.

So, when you see yourself in the mirror after a long day, or in a photograph, be kind to that mama looking back at you. Don’t point out her flaws or get down on her for not being perfectly coiffed and put together. Smile at her and remember that we are extremely fortunate to be able to parent these little miracles. Hopefully we can all look back at this time and say, “wow, I was happy”.

 

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Dear Q – 1 year!

Dear Q,

How has a year gone by so fast? Daddy and I keep talking about how it feels like you just arrived yesterday and it also feels like you’ve been with us forever. We can’t imagine life without you, that’s for sure.

This year we have learned so much about ourselves, each other and about you, baby girl. You turned us into parents. You have redefined the meaning of the word Love. I don’t know if I truly knew what love meant before you came along. Now when my heart explodes every day when I see your sweet face I know exactly what love is and what life is all about.

Every month seems like more and more fun and I can honestly say that this is the most fun stage yet. You’re crawling like a little speed demon. You have a very loud ‘stompy’ crawl, so it’s pretty easy to figure out where you are except for when you are making mischief, then you are silent! Your favorite spots to crawl away to are Daddy’s bathroom, the cat food dishes, and Mommy & Daddy’s bedroom. Now we keep the wicker chest across the doorway of the living room so you can’t escape! I have a feeling you’re going to figure out how to move it pretty soon though.

In addition to crawling you are cruising like a champion. You don’t NEED to hold on to things for balance anymore but you’re not confident enough to stand or walk without holding on. You get around though! You’re able to stand for over a minute at a time but you only do it when you find something that needs two hands to hold or if we set you down on an unfamiliar surface like newspaper, woodchips, or in the pool. It’s adorable. You stand for a few minutes until you get your bearings and then you sit down. We think you’ll be walking by September but I’m not in a hurry. Once you’re walking I’m REALLY going to have to chase you!

After being rather quiet in general you’ve started babbling all the time. You have a special word for the cats. “AH-heeeeeeee”  I think you’re trying to say Ki-tty. I wasn’t counting it as a word until you started saying it when you see pictures of cats too. You also say “mmmmmmm-bah”, “dadadadada” “nananana” and all sorts of combinations. There’s new sounds coming out every day and in contrast to your hoarse baritone voice of a few months ago, your chattering is super high pitched. It’s so funny. I can’t wait to hear what your voice will sound like when you really start talking. And I’d love if you added “Mama” to the mix!

We’re trying to do a lot of signing with you as well and you’re catching on with “Milk” and “More”. Right now you’re mostly signing for milk WHILE you’re nursing instead of using the sign to ask for it but we’ll get there! I hope that the signs will help us communicate and lower your frustration levels in the future. We’re on the verge of toddler tantrums and I’m not looking forward to them!

Your other “tricks” are waving, sticking out your tongue and blowing raspberries. You’ll do all of those things back to us if we do them to you. You also wave when we clap so we’re still working on that. 🙂

You’re still a really happy girl. You prefer to stick close to Mommy in group settings like music class but you warm up easily to visitors and to our family. You love strawberries, bananas, quesadillas, pasta, corn and tons of other foods. George is your best friend and you get SO excited to see him every morning. He gets excited to see you too and waits outside your bedroom door to be let in. I’m so glad you two love each other, it makes me so happy. Stella is warming up to you as well. She still keeps her distance but she’s approached you a few times and even let you pet her. Progress!

You still love nursing and I do too (most of the time!) so we’re continuing that relationship as long as it continues to work for both of us. I love the snuggles that I get from you. I love knowing that while I may not be a perfect parent my body is still providing a perfect food to meet your ever changing needs.

You are such an amazing little person. I can’t believe how fast you’re changing and how much you’re learning every single day. You’re smart, sweet, curious and beautiful, a total package of a one year old. I still catch myself wanting to press the pause button and keep you like this forever but I’m also excited to see what is next for you. I’m so thankful that I get to be on this incredible journey with you.

Love you forever and ever and ever,

Mommy

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Dear Q – 11 months

Dear Q,

Ever the procrastinator, I’m writing your 11 month letter a few weeks late but better late than never, right?

I can’t believe what a little girl you have become. You’re crawling everywhere and pulling up on anything stable (and quite a few things that are not so stable, like grabbing my skirt to pull up). You love to cruise while holding on to the couch and coffee table and you’re so proud of yourself for getting where you want to go.

Your favorite place is right next to Mommy, especially if I am trying to use an electronic device. You love my iPhone, the baby monitor, the cordless phone, the remotes and you ADORE my laptop. I can’t use it while you’re awake unless I want you to come bang on the keys. It’s so funny, you’ll cruise over to me and when you’re about a foot away you get this crazy excited smile as you start reaching for the keyboard. It’s hard to say no to that smile!

Speaking of saying no, you do not like hearing that word! You want what you want when you want it and you are not happy when things do not go according to the Q plan. I’m working with you on sign language and I’m hoping that we’ll be able to communicate more clearly in the coming months so you don’t get so frustrated. Right now you LOVE your Signing Time DVDs. They are pretty much the only thing we let you watch. When Rachel jumps into the frame and starts singing the theme song your face lights up. It’s so cute.

Your favorite toys are: My Pal Violet, Keys, anything you can shake, the cats, your music table, books (especially touchy-feely ones) and Mommy’s face/hair/glasses/necklace, etc.

Your favorite foods are: Strawberries, Grapes, Bananas, Baby Mum Mums, String Cheese and, of course, breastmilk.

Breastfeeding is going really well and I’m so glad we’ve easily made it to my original goal of one year. There was some biting going on last month but I figured out how to avoid it and now things are great. My heart melts when you latch on and let out a big sigh as you snuggle into the crook of my arm. I also love the little clicking sound I hear as you swallow and your tummy grows full. I have no idea when we will wean. If it happened tomorrow I’d be heartbroken, but I’d still be proud of how long we made it.

I love…

…your serious face when you’re reading books with Daddy at bedtime. You concentrate so hard!

…how you crawl to find Daddy when he gets home and start talking to him non-stop.

…how excited you get when you see the cats. You bounce and wave your hands and call out to them. I hope you’re friends for a long time.

…when you fall asleep in my arms.

…looking at the video monitor and seeing the crazy positions in which you sleep.

…listening to you babble, especially when you say Ma-Ma!

…watching your face as you listen to music. It’s fun to see what catches your interest.

…your laugh that sounds like a squeaky toy. Your toothy smiles make my day.

…YOU! From the curls on your head to the tips of your toes. I love you, baby girl!

Forever Yours,

Mommy

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